I want fried rice. With big chunks of luncheon meat. And teeny weeny strips of eggs. And lots of guai tau, whatever they're called in english. 

Somebody tell me what's wrong with me.

If I just had the most satisfying cry ever.

Why am I still crying.

Is "wanting to cry because I haven't been crying for a long time" still the reason anymore?

Okay last night I cried the most satisfying beroomphed "and you're empty and you're full" cry ever.

My eyes very bengkak. How now.

                

Wah. Random dou. I grabbed the pencil and like the tip was sharp so like very yan to write on paper right, so I grabbed a piece of paper from the printer and... started drawing.

I hadn't been drawing for seven months or so.

O___O

It's still genderless, bighaired and uneven eyed.

Still the same.

My mind is so clogged up, it's pretty exhausting.

Downloading Christmas songs X3 But like, every year I try to find The 12 Days of Christmas. Every year also cannot find wan. T_T

Yesterday I was lazing around trying to make myself cry until Hui Yat called up to invite me to go Bakerzin and rape their cakes, so I joined her and Gin and her mum to Bangsar Village. My heart broke when I saw Gin u_u She's making me sad.

Our dinner:


Dessert <3 :

Choux pastry with ice-cream in between, stopped with chocolate sauce and almonds. WAH TOTAL LOVE.

Chocolate cake with strawberry syrup and vanilla ice-cream. When you poke your fork in, POOOOSHHHH THE WARM CHOCOLATE IN IT JUST OOZES OUT LIKE HEAVEN AND WELL IT'S JUST PURE BLISS OKAY YOU MUST TRY THIS AT LEAST ONCE IN YOUR LIFE TIME.


I am promoting Bakerzin. Bakerzin can be found at 1Utama and Bangsar Village (and I dunno where else). Faster go. It's Heaven.

I wanted to tapau a cake for Chee Weng, but Hui Yat wanted to buy too so we opted for the Buy-4-Free-1 =D

You see that one with the strawberry. That's a strawberry shortcake. Oh my god. I never tasted such great sponge cake before. I never liked sponge cakes, but I think I might change my mind now. TO QUOTE HUI YAT, YOU CAN HEAR THE LITTLE MUNCHKINS SINGING IN YOUR EARS AFTER YOU EAT IT.

We went back to Gin's place and decided to stayover, got Chee Weng over and indulged ourselves in cakes. Watched Death Note again, and then half of Accepted before I fell asleep and Hui Yat got sleepy.

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EDIT:
Editted out because I'm too irked so I want to leave it out right now. =_=
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This is Chippy being cute. According to Chee Weng, that's her play dead pose. He had somehow trained her to react like that to his "bang bang!"s.

Spent more time lazing around, physically abusing Chee Weng, pestering him to switch on the water heater, lesbianing with Hui Yat, watching porn in the computer.... more physical abuse and pestering. After dinner we decided to go down to Leisure Mall initially for Neway, but we ended up lounging at Starbucks. Wasted money at Baskin Robbins. Went back to Starbucks to stone.


Lazing around in Gin's room. Gin's house is so darn comfortable, it's like my second home. <3


I just think that Hui Yat looks so bloody cute in that Santa hat. The first pic is a spoof off Accepted btw =3


I'm in the mood for Christmas. I love Christmas. Like oh my god, I really do love Christmas.

And like while I'm excited that Chee Weng is actually reading and enjoying a manga, this is getting too weird:
:: Cw says:
pember SUPER YENG LOR
:: Cw says:
PALING YENG IN MANGA ..until now
:: Cw says:
and raito
:: Cw says:
2nd
=______________= WHERE GOT PEOPLE LIDDAT WAN. RAITO IS LIKE T3H GOD OKAY. *coughs*fangirlspeaking*coughs*

OH MY GOD TERK CHERN IS SO SWEET HE ACTUALLY DOWNLOADED THE TWELVE DAYS OF CHRISTMAS FOR ME WITHOUT ME ASKING FOR IT WAHHHH! XD Goofy's version. Hahaha!

By the way I don't think I'm gonna be in a good mood for the next few hours... or... days. Bear with me u_u I cried yesterday and I cried today but like got no oomph wan lor, no satisfying feeling wan lor, no "... like when you've been crying, and you're empty, and you're full" wan lor. Bleh.

Well I don't feel like talking about Chinese New Years now.

I want to continue Honey & Clover II but the guys are using the computer outside. =/ Emo show. Nice nice.

Wondering a few stuff about myself.

Eh, you know hor, in the excitement of my new underwears, I have totally forgot about my comfortable expensive La Senza underwears. =/

I wanna dance under a mistletoe with christmas lights all around me and the smell of flowers in the air~ <3

Been taking forever to finish up Never Say Never, rewatching old movies, watching that Jdrama Gin lent to me, rereading Sevenwaters...

Sevenwaters. My eternal love <3

..........Okay mood change already. Thus ends my random entry of the day. Bye.

I cannot remember my Christmases before I was seven. Maybe we didn't celebrate it.

Ever since I shifted to Puteri Court, my Christmases were practically the same every year.

Christmas Eve. Shang-ri La Hotel. Dolled up in princess gowns. Dinner at The Pub or The Bar or whatever that place is called (sometimes it's downstairs at that dunno what Garden or Cafe place). Dinner in a room, greet all the uncles and aunties with smiles and giggly voice. Receive presents. Look at their kids in the eye with a shy grin. The window overlooks KL traffic, and the mad people running around celebrating. Opens the party packs and fool around with the other kids. Try on the party masks and hats. Stand behind mum hoping that she would offer me a sip from her wine glass, which she usually does. Drink more than I'm offered and turn all red in the face. Adults pull everyone out of the room to dance on the dancefloor. Watch the performer with envy as she dances. Dance with mum, and when I get into the mood, dance with everyone else. Dance dance dance until my feet hurt, get back into the room for more wine. Go back out for the countdown. Hug mum. Grin with satisfaction. Stand outside the hotel waiting for the car. Release the helium-filled balloons into the air. Watch them as they fly higher up, wondering where they would go, when will they burst. I wished to sit on them as they floated. Go home to open presents.

And then it got a little different. Somehow, the parties got a little more boring. Adults start to offer to send us kids home before countdown.

Then one year, we spent Christmas on the cruise. Pinkie Cheung performed.

Last year, I spent Christmas at home. I invited a few girlfriends over and we had a good time, and asked for another party this year. Do you guys still want to hang out with me during Christmas this year? =(

This year, I do not know how I am going to spend my Christmas.

Okay, time for supper.

I will talk about my Chinese New Years after I eat.

...If I still got the mood.

I finally got someone to buy me the dress! =P Steph agreed to get it as my Christmas prezzie provided I pay RM50 for it XP Bwee~
...I'm only getting it if I look good in it =D

After lots of beating around the bush, I finally got Chee Weng over and we watched Accepted and Death Note.

Death Note ok ok lar. A bit potong stim because the subtitles sucked. Really badly. Misamisa not bad wor, quite cute also... I dunno why I was very excited to see Misa >w< I wanna see cute cute lolis~ *O*

...That's quite wrong, isn't it....

Lexi's going to a relative of mine. Farewell once again...

...

I STILL CANNOT CRY. I NEED TO CRY LAH. BECAUSE LONG TIME DIDN'T CRY ALREADY. YESTERDAY NEARLY CRIED JOR. JUST NOW MEMANG CRYING THEN MY SISTER CAME AND INTERRUPT THEN ABRUPTLY STOPPED. Then I told Chee Weng to make me cry and he did the stupidest thing, and I almost cried but how can I cry when I'm in his arms?

Now I still cannot cry, even though Lexi is leaving.

Somebody please make me cry T_T

BODY CLOCK GONE HAYWIRE AKU NAK NAIK GILA T_T;;;;

Had a crack lunch at Kim Gary *O* Summore I wasted money like sial, I didn't finish my (instant) noodles! >_> Then we paraded the sixth floor like oh my god I saw a lot of cute stuffles T_T Like that pillow and that teddy bear and that plushy like wowww T_T AND!!!! I SAW A BLACK DRESS!!! VERY CUTE WAN LOR!!! RM130 ONLY!!!!! I WANT TO BUY AHHHHH.

But I already asked mum to buy me that Guess top. How to ask her to buy me another dress now. T_T

EH CHRISTMAS IS IN ANOTHER 23 DAYS =) ANYONE WANNA GET ME THAT DRESS AH. =D Faster get it before someone else does! *o*!

We went for Redbox and screamed like sakai omg Jean, Shib, Jaz, Tien Koon and Chee Weng are a bunch of SAKAIS O_O! AND THEY CUT MY "IT'S YOUR LOVE" TWICE OKAY THAT IS A CRIME LIKE OMG I WAS SO EMO T_T

Pastu we went to get purikuras with Jazzie which due to Mr Chan's genius calculation we got extra small photos with loads of extras. And apparently he's supposed to give me the extras but I did not receive them >( So Jean and Jazzie wanted to take more, so Chee Weng and I went for our turn as well with Shib navigating the program ;P

Had my dinner at Delifrance, and then went to Seed Cafe for Chee Weng's dinner @@ Waited for our ride for half an hour before coming home and go crazy some more, and then waited another 150+ cars to pass by before finally catching a cab to send Chee Weng home.

Damn cab. >P

Okay so here's a goodnight to you and I'm gonna mandi now BABAI @@;;